Reality 😕

Hi fellow peeps, JEEgivers, NEETgivers, ...... after months and months long depression and successfully failing JEE, I finally did understand the meaning of PROCESS rather than result... most of you would be same as me .. depressed as f, bad acads, grade too bad to show and all, but today i discovered the true meaning of JEE and other competetive world that i think would be worth sharing with my fellow friend.... see, jee is definatly a career deciding exam but failing in that doesn't mean that you fail in all aspects of your life.. i just realise that how a brain ded average 90% despo student i was in my class 10th and when i started to fail in my jee test i felt devsted and fked completely because me personally was never a person who get bad grades.. so my depression started as i soon as my first test and continued till last test in jan... a BIG 2 years of severe depression .. lonliness quietness.. no friend and all that stuff created such a tough time for me that i compleatly had a breakdown and my mind was just in a loopmode of me going to class, sitting there, coming back home, eating, trying my best to stay focused but failing, parents shouting, cousins comparing, friends (worst than enimies) ragging and all.... but then all of a sudden my quietness became my teacher and tought me such life lessons that probably any of my elder wont be able to teach me .. i now understand what is life whats the purpose of us living fragility of relations, understanding of emotions, why just an exam cant decide my future and all .... i now have a clear thought process, how to choose friends, what people use me and who cares for me... 2 year into jee i understood that its not about coaching that if you re in that xyz coahing you will surely ace your exam, rather it is you who decide that you want to study or just waste it out. as jee approaaches, almost every person becomes thier own coaching institue, they teach their own selfs, choose their own teachers, solve questions on thier own, clear their own doubts, be their own mentor, be their own guied but as soon as results come out the coaching programs a factory reset by their publicity methods and we all once again fall in the trap of coaching and all. 2 YEARS is a BIG time and anyone who is suffering that 2 years rather than living it becomes a complete monk, then as you proceed further in your life, sorting things become a peice of cake for u ll 62% doesnt matter if you land in a good college or not but you surely did expirence the life in a very uniquely different angle and this expirence will drive you to such heights that you will never forget,.. the thought that you failed jee really dosent change your life but the process and the suffering you have been through is surly something noteable and worthwhile in you life... Be happy and feel lucky that you have witnessed and expirenced the life only 2-5 lakhs of serious people live .. rest all millions and billions of peeps in your age group just wasted thier time.. yes i did not clear jee, yeah i did not make it into the best colleges, yes it was tough for me and yes i am also from a middle class family boy who has ambitions to change his family the brighter ways but i realised that not just this exam but any exam does not and should not have the value and guts to ruin and end your dreams, so be happy that you were the steel that has to go through immense heat to become the strongest version of yourself stay calm and composed because if not now, THE BEST FOR YOU IS YET TO COME!! And remember, ISOLATING OWNSELF FOR FEW DAYS WILL ALWAYS TEACH YOU THINGS THAT ANY TEACHER CANNOT BECAUSE IN THAT SILENCE LIFE BECOMES YOUR TEACHER, and in that period you will feel enlightened and full of knowledge that you need to pass a tough situation in front of you. I really dont mean to say that do not study life is great but deep down in our heart we must have the true feeling that even if i dont succseed in the near future i will surely do in a longer run. why i wrote all this.. few days back my friend tried to commited s*cide and i was devested the news... really wanted all of my fellow 11th and 12th buddies to live the life to its fullest rather than taking stupidly wrong decisions in life.. this is a post from my side explaining the silver lining that every black cloud has.. enjoy, your fellow mate :) DM me if anyone of you wants me to talk to you or have any problems regarding it THANKS regards Join the conversation