mini rant: nate is annoying.

I'm in my second rewatch, and I thought a second chance to mull over Nate's persona would make him more sympathetic. It has not. strongly disliked him before, strongly dislike him now. Idk something hit me in S2E6 when Mitzi gives them another buyout offer. Nate rejecting it without even properly considering what David wants is so inconsiderate and self-absorbed. Congratulations on basing your fragile ego around working in a funeral home, but that doesn't mean your brother needs to be dragged along in your shitty attitude and self-pitying behaviour. I get that he is scared of dying because of his AVM, but as someone who is surrounded by death at all times, you would think he'd handle it with more grace and gratitude. And in this same episode, the bereaving woman (who he's not really helping get through their grief, something which he is apparently supposed to be gifted at) says "You think it's a day like any other, what you don't realise is that anything can happen, and then it does, it happens. And there's so much left unsaid. And it was all just wasted time." AND IT LITERALLY ENCAPSULATES HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH BRENDA AT THE MOMENT. His resentment for Brenda for her withdrawing from their relationship when not even considering how the time away from Billy may be affecting her is so offputting. And this early on, all the other messed up shit he does hasn't even happened yet and I am already so repulsed?? I don't know what it is about him, every character in the series is flawed yet intensely sympathetic. He is the exception.